Ask me no questions.

28 May 2009 @ 07:11 pm

"I feel as though everything I once knew is crashing around me; everything is different, changing, without my knowledge or involvement; I don't know what to do, where to turn, other than go with the flow, hoping everything turns out ok; why do I feel so unprepared, so clueless, so.......lonely?"

Well, this is what my Facebook status is.

My best girl friend, the one I've been annoyed with, is pregnant.

And apparently has been for a while.

And she didn't tell me.

Apparently the whole world knew.

I'm slightly pissed, but I know I can't be, because I'm sure she has good reason for not telling me, right?

Her due date is July 6. Supposedly.

That puts conception at about October-ish.

Which means her ex-boyfriend (a real dickhead, if you pardon my language) is the father. Unless she really was sleeping around on him.

Which also means she's been pregnant this entire time.

Oy vey.

I'm so nervous I'm shivering. That doesn't happen very often unless I'm really, REALLY nervous about something.

But whatever happens, I'm going to do my best to be there.

Because she's my best friend. We go too far back for me to just let that go. I just hope that she feels the same way. =(

And the baby's a girl. Josephine Dawn.

OY VEY.

This makes both of my best girl friends (I don't want to say former, but we're definitely not as close as before) pregnant. And due at about the same time. And they had been dating and getting married/planning marriage to their boyfriends of ONE year. Am I the only one with one ounce of sense? Or something that vaguely resembles it?

I really could use some feedback, thoughts.....anything at this point.

Thanks.

Til next time;

xoxo

Tags: life: oy vey

Current Location: home

Current Mood:

OY VEY

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03 May 2009 @ 11:38 pm

It's all....part of the plan.

Created by MyFitnessPal - Online Calorie Counter

Oh boy. Here I go. =) I'm trying to be optimistic about it all. It's my plan for summer -- OK technically, it's like a 6-month plan, and I don't expect to lose it all in 6 months, but I want progress. Wish me luck. =)

Tags: life: diet

Current Location: dorms.

Current Mood:

nervous

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20 April 2009 @ 10:26 am

All is well.

Hey all --

So yeah, I've had an interesting week, I suppose you could say. I did the whole go home to work thing like I always do, but then yesterday (Sunday) I had an interesting opportunity. You may guess now.

................

.........Done guessing? Okay, I suppose I'll tell you........

.......I met the BF's parents. For the first time. EVER. Yeah.

But they like me!!! I'm excited. You should have seen me last night, I was practically bouncing off the walls when he told me. =)

And on a school-related note, I got a 20/20 on my evolution homework!! I was way excited about that too; that's the first time I've gotten a perfect on an assignment in her class. So yay for me. =)

And I have to go to the library after aqua aerobics today, to work on my cell biology project with my partner. But I don't have class tomorrow, so whatever we don't get done today, I can work on tomorrow morning til calculus. (Ugh. I hate math. Especially calculus. This reminds me I have to do that homework. lol)

Well.......other than that, I can't really think of anything interesting that I've done.....well, ok, today, I went and joined this thing called OGame. Yeah. The BF and some friends of ours (and his) are all playing it, and they convinced me to do it too. It's a browser-based game, so it takes forever for anything to get done, but they are on it ALL THE TIME. I hope I don't get that addicted.

So yeah.....other than that, the only semi-interesting thing is that I'm seriously considering doing a icon journal, so look for that relatively soon; I'm working on icons now, so I can do a good first post. So yay, I suppose. And I'm lurking like mad on some bento communities and sites. So I'm going to start doing that too, methinks. And there's some animanga that I want to look into, but I think I'm also going to look for some Katharine Hepburn films as well. I love her. My mom liked her too, and so my name is spelled like hers. =)

Okay, this turned into a rambling post real fast. So I'm gonna let you guys go. Have fun, don't get hurt, and don't regret anything that made you smile. =)

xoxo

Tags: life, life: relationships

Current Mood:

content

Current Music: Meiko - Said and Done

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07 April 2009 @ 04:13 pm

04.07.09 : 4:13 p.m.

Okay, so yeah, Facebook's being a jerk, and I thought, why not come on over to LJ and respond to the meme, and see what everyone's up to?

estrella_blanca gave me these two memes to do. =D

( Meme numero uno! )

( Meme numero dos!! )

So yeah, I'm gonna get some food, and then go poke around LJ for a while. Comment if you wish, don't feel pressured tho. =)

Tags: fandom: anime, life, livejournal: meme

Current Location: university center

Current Mood:

awake

Current Music: queen

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06 April 2009 @ 03:55 pm

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming....

Hey all!

Wow, I feel like I've been cut off from the rest of the world. And I feel like such an idiot. I realized a lot of things over spring break. First off, I'm changing my major. I thought that Bioarchaeology was something that I wanted to do, and while it's cool, there's just a lot more to it than I thought, and I'm just not passionate about it anymore. That, and the prospect of 7 more years of school does not help. =] So.....I'm thinking about double majoring in Radiology and Medical Laboratory Technology. No, I'm not sure that these are the right directions either, but they're different directions, and I need that.

I've also realized how immature I've been. I was ready to drop everything for my boyfriend. And I realized that that's not me. I'm not breaking up with him, no, far from that. That's like on the opposite end of the spectrum from what I feel for him. =] But I'm definitely becoming more independent in my thoughts, and it will eventually come out in my actions too. I feel like such a sheep. But I'm waking up! Maybe it's the prospect of warmer weather.

But I've been thinking. And I have a goal in mind. The summer after I graduate, I'm going to backpack through Europe. Now, I'm thinking that I'm going to go by myself. This is a few years from now, so I have time to decide everything, but it's a goal. And it's a healthy goal. An independent goal. It's good for me. =]

And I'm also trying to get back into the swing of things. I want to get a better version of Photoshop. Because I miss it. A lot. And I need something else to do with my time rather than sit here bored all the time.

There was something else I was going to say, but I don't remember it. =]

xoxo

swimming back from the great Beyond,

Katy

Tags: life

Current Location: dorms.

Current Mood:

calm

Current Music: Just Dance -- Lady Gaga

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30 January 2009 @ 08:11 pm

Insecurity.....

.......is a bitch. Seriously. I hate, HATE being insecure. Tonight, I was just laying with my boyfriend Justin, just talking, saying little cutesy things. But then, he said something that I totally took out of hand. He said he liked me for my brain. So, me being me, I said, "So you don't like me for my body?" and he said that my body was nice, but he really liked me for my brain.

And although I didn't say anything, I've started to think stupid things. Like how my body isn't good enough, and how I wish I had a body like Kaleigh, who is my best friend, and then I started thinking about how well Justin and Kaleigh get along, and how she actually has an hourglass figure, and how much smarter she is, and how she's funnier than me, and all that.

It's stupid, I know, but I can't help but compare myself to her, even though I know that he loves me, and that they would never date, or even have feelings like that for each other. All I know is that if he would leave me for her, I would die. I can't imagine myself being with anyone else, and I don't want to imagine myself with anyone else.

........I know, I'm being stupid. But it's the truth.

And I just don't think that I'm smart, or funny, or have a great body, even though Justin says I do. I always think that he's just saying that to make me feel better, and that I'm just average. I sometimes think he says that because he has to.

...........yes, I'm stupid.

Tags: life: relationships

Current Mood:

blah

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16 January 2009 @ 06:36 pm

From the Abyss.....

Hello all! Long time, no see! (No, seriously, it has been a looooooooong time. I've just been neglecting LJ, period. Damn school.)

So, I have a boyfriend. I don't know if that's been mentioned or not. For our purposes, we shall call him Jab, because that's his initials. =) Just like Krew happens to be mine. So it works. =) He's pretty much amazing, guys. I have never felt this deeply for anyone before. I love him. He treats me right, he basically reads my mind.....*sigh*

Well, on the school front, I was not happy with myself at all last semester. I was taking General Chemistry, Alternative Religions and Cults, Elementary French 1, Instrumental Ensemble, and Precalculus. So, I got an A in everything except Chemistry and Precalculus. I got a B in the math course. Guess what I got in the Chemistry course? A D. I was NOT happy. I've never, EVER gotten a D before in my life. And guess what? I had to get a C- at least in order to take the second half of the course. NOT GOOD. So, I dropped the second half for this semester, and picked up Cell Biology instead, which is another required course for my major. Which is a good thing. So now here's my schedule for this semester:

MONDAYS/WEDNESDAYS:

Evolution, 8:00 AM - 8:50 AM
Aqua Aerobics, 1:00 PM - 1:50 PM

TUESDAYS/THURSDAYS:

Cell Biology, 8:00 AM - 9:50 AM
Principles of Cultural Anthropology, 10:00 AM - 11:20 AM
Calculus 1, 12:00 PM - 1:50 PM
Terrorism and Crime, 2:00 PM - 3:20 PM

FRIDAYS:

Evolution, 8:00 AM - 8:50 AM

So yeah, Tuesdays and Thursdays are my busy days. On top of all this, I have orchestra practice on Monday nights, from 7-9:15. And on Tuesdays, I have a Student Programming Board (SPB) meeting at 3:30, and an Student Government Association (SGA) meeting after that at 4, that I really need to start going to. And on Thursdays, I have a Screenwriting Guild meeting at 5:30. So I'm kinda busy.

And about the Chemistry class, I think I'm gonna retake it over the summer, and get a better grade to replace the one I have. We'll see how that goes. XD

Sigh. Such is life.

I hope everyone has been well while I was away.

Love from,

Krew

P.S. A belated Merry Christmas/Kwanzaa/Hannukah/Holidays and a Happy New Year to everyone. =)

Tags: life: relationships

Current Location: boyfriend's dorm. =)

Current Mood: OMGIT'SCOLD

Current Music: take me or leave me -- rent soundtrack

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30 October 2008 @ 10:48 am

Survey -- 10/30/08

Write down what you see, hear, and are thinking..

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4....\"Very Great\", especially applied to...

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What's there? an unfinished game of Risk. which i\'m losing.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? one of the guys playing a video game.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is: 10:38

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 10:41

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Music on the computer, cars outside

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? This morning, like an hour ago. Going to the guys.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? My myspace profile

9. What are you wearing? jeans, blue shirt, grey shirt, socks, white hoop earrings...and i was wearing my plaid shoes

10. Did you dream last night? i think so

11. When did you last laugh? this morning

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? posters of varying things

13. Seen anything weird lately? do you know where i live?

14. What do you think of this quiz? it\'s alright

15. What is the last film you saw? national treasure 2

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? i would pay off my parent\'s farm, get me and my siblings through college, and probably a house in Europe...somewhere. XD

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know: I\'m a lot dorkier than people give me credit for.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? end rape/domestic violence, child abuse, and get all the corrupt out of Congress.

19. Do you like to dance? Yep. very much so.

20. George Bush: was trying to do what he thought was right at the time. he\'s only one guy.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? either Amy Elizabeth or Zoe Brianne

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? either James Nathaniel or William Gabriel.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad? Yes. I\'d like to someday.

24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates? I\'m sorry. I knew better, and I failed you multiple times. Do what you will.

</br></br>Find this survey and others at www.geefx.com</br></br>

Tags: livejournal: survey

Current Location: dorm

Current Mood:

tired

Current Music: heart -- barracuda

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23 October 2008 @ 03:18 pm

Amusement. =)

This really amused me. =)

Your result for The Harry Potter Husband Test...

Mrs. Lupin

Your perfect HP man is Remus Lupin.

You like a nice, kind guy with a bit of a fierce streak and you don't mind if he comes damaged. Sure, he may take some convincing since his self-esteem's so low, but once you win him over, you know he's yours for life. Unless of course he has an attack of "I'm not good enough" and runs away, but luckily he's also good at making friends who will push him back into line if necessary.

(Art by Gold-Seven http://gold-seven.deviantart.com/ Used with permission.)

Take The Harry Potter Husband Test at HelloQuizzy

Tags: livejournal: quizzes

Current Location: dorm

Current Mood:

bouncy

Current Music: into the night -- chad kroeger and santana

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11 October 2008 @ 12:38 pm

There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight, just a bridge that I gotta burn...[10/11/08]

Hello loves,

So I am totally confused. I've kinda liked this one guy for a while now (the one with the girlfriend that I mentioned an entry or so earlier? yeah, that one), but I think my hormones are messing with me. Cuz I really think I'm crushing on one of his roommates!! Ugh. He's a friend as well, and I can't think of anything but awkwardness coming from this, but I can't help but like them. ARRRRGH. (One note: He's gotta crush on one of his friends from back home. Has had one for 2 years. ARGH.)

But other than that, my week's been alright. I'm not totally okay with how my grades, but I know how to fix it: study more, play less. It's just a matter of me making myself study. But I think Sunday is my day of study. I need to buy a pair of earphones. I can get ones for cheap at Wal-Mart. But I need them so I can listen to music on my laptop while I'm studying, and I don't have to bother anyone. And I can tune people out.

Tomorrow Kaleigh (someone I can truly call my best friend -- girl-wise, anywho) and I are going to a festival back home. It should be exciting. She's never been, but I go every year. I've heard that this is supposed to be the last one, though, and that's sad. T_T

Ummm, what else......I'm trying to think of what to be for Halloween, guys. Does anyone have any ideas? That would be awesome if you could send them my way. =D

.....Well, I can't think of anything else truly exciting, so I will let you guys go. I hope everything's alright from your end!!

xoxo

Tags: life: halloween

Current Location: dorm.

Current Mood:

contemplative

Current Music: gone -- kelly clarkson

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29 September 2008 @ 09:37 pm

Cuz you're Hot and you're Cold, You're Yes and you're No--09/29/08

Good evening darlings. How has the past few weeks been for everyone? I hope everythings alright with everyone-- I haven't had much time to breathe, much less access my LiveJournal. Ugh. Sat. I went to one of my best friends' wedding. I was nice, and everything was gorgeous--I just made myself useful like I was supposed to, and life was good. XD Seriously, I was against the whole thing in the first place, because she's so young, and the couple had only been dating a year, and ugh. But it was the day of, and I couldn't be anything but happy for them, because it was obvious they loved each other, and I couldn't ruin that. Not that they'd listen anyway.......but oh well.

Okay, so I feel as though the entire world's against me on this one--except my mother. XD Situation: my friend and her mother do not have the best relationship. My friend is getting engaged in November, on her and her boyfriend's one year anniversary. (First off, WTF?!) She was not planning to tell her mother until afterwords, and even then, it was going to be "Oh, by the way, I'm engaged." WHAT? So, I did a kind-of-stupid thing, and told the mom that there was a rumor that the boyfriend was going to propose to said friend. I didn't say it outright, and I honestly felt that the mom had a right to know, and it gives her time to process the idea. Of course, when my friend found out, she blew a gasket, but she's not really mad, she's just upset that I told her at all. I probably shouldn't have, but like I said, it gives her mom time to process it (part of the reason they have a weird relationship is because when friend tells mom things, mom doesn't let it settle before responding, thus saying stupid things); and it's not going to change anything--they already have the ring, and it's not going to change ANYTHING.

.....and everyone I've told thinks I did a stupid thing by letting the mom process said info. Honestly, I don't feel bad about doing it, and there's nothing to be done now, but I really need to know other's opinions, not just those affected by the news.

Ummm.....anything else new in my area? Oh-- my great-grandma's 90th birthday was Sunday, so I went to a big ol family gathering for that. It was fun. I took a whole bunch of pictures of old people my grandma knew. XD But I got to see the family again, so it was fun. But now--it's weird--at random times, I feel nauseous, like I'm carsick all of the sudden. I don't think it's anything I'm eating, but it's just weird.

I think that's all from my corner. Hope everything's going all right for you guys! Ciao!

xoxo

Tags: life: birthdays, life: relationships, life: weddings

Current Location: dorm

Current Mood:

nauseated

Current Music: katy perry -- hot n cold

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10 September 2008 @ 07:58 pm

Allo, oui?

Hello loves,

Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm doing fine here at college. My Precalculus class sucks, but I don't like math, so that's okay. My Alternative Religions and Cults class has potential to be fun, but the teacher is SOOOOOOO boring. And I have to use my laptop just to keep up with him. My Chemistry class and French classes are alright too.

Okay, so I've made friends with these guys that live below me. They remind me soo much of my friends back home. It's great cuz they don't quite understand why I keep showing up. =D Anyway, the one's really cute, but he has a girlfriend. XD I always go after the taken ones. But he's seriously cute. ANYWAY. My roommates are probably wondering what happened to me. But I just don't feel like I connect with them anymore. I'm gonna try to keep them all though.

So....who's heard of SPORE? It's a game for the PC/Mac, and the guys love it. I've been thinking of buying it, but I want to know if anyone else has heard of it, at least. =D

xoxo

Tags: life: relationships

Current Location: the guys' dorm

Current Mood:

content

Current Music: hot n cold -- katy perry

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30 August 2008 @ 10:48 am

I'm finally....

18. Happy Birthday to Me!!

On a semi-related note, I'm at home for now. The first week of college was fun!!! I loved it. I got moved in, my roommates and I like each other, my classes are great, and I'm definitely going to get involved on campus. There's really not much to say other than I hope that everyone's having a good one!!

xoxo

Tags: life: birthdays, life: college

Current Location: home

Current Mood:

excited

Current Music: the little things -- colbie calliat

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26 August 2008 @ 09:18 am

settled in

Hello all--

As promised, I am now writing to you from my dorm. I am settled in, like my roommates, met some new what-I-think-are-going-to-be friends(one who actually lives about a half hour from me. Go figure. XD), and have generally just had fun. I hope that doesn't change because classes started today. XD Basically the weekend went as such: Saturday, moved in, met roomies. Sunday, hung out with roomies a little, hung out with Kaleigh more, met other roomie. Monday: ran some errands, went to a bunch of meetings, met the other friends, hung out.

And that, my ducks, has been my weekend. I have accomplished next to nothing. But I have my first class today at 4. Yay.

I really need to eat breakfast, so I will do this meme mad_scientist_x left me.

( Meme... )
Two things I miss: my mouse, and PHOTOSHOP!!! I'm totally putting it on this thing this weekend. =D

xoxo

Tags: life: college, livejournal: meme, random: photoshop

Current Location: dorm

Current Mood:

chipper

Current Music: I'm goin, I'm gone -- lesley roy

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17 August 2008 @ 09:18 pm

random post to let everyone know I'm still alive...

Here are the rules:

* Choose a singer/band/group.
* Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.

Paramore

1. Are you male or female?
That's What You Get

2. Describe yourself.
For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic

3. What do you feel around people?
Fences

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
We Are Broken

5. Describe your current relationship.
crushcrushcrush

6. Where would you want to be now?
Miracle

7. How do you feel about love?
Let the Flames Begin

8. What's your life like?
Born For This

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
When It Rains

10. Say something wise.
We Are Broken

11. Do you believe in God?
Hallelujah

( Click for real-life musings that nobody really reads... )

Tags: life, livejournal: survey

Current Location: home

Current Mood:

blah

Current Music: that's what you get -- paramore

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06 August 2008 @ 10:45 pm

mini-icon post of doom.

Bwahahaha.

I have a few icons that I've done; just trying to get my creative juices flowing again. I've also had some plot bunnies pop up (a couple that I've posted), but there's this one story that won't get out of my head. So I will meet that demand first. And probably post the first chapter (whenever it gets done, and probably un-beta-ed) here. (And yes, it will be Harry Potter--the fandom's so demanding. XD )

( Mini-icon post )

And a friends-only banner. I forgot to mention that. ^-^

xoxo

Tags: fandom, graphics: friends only banner, graphics: icons

Current Location: ohio

Current Mood:

creative

Current Music: quick quotes quill -- traf

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03 August 2008 @ 08:37 am

(no subject)

Okay, this was posted by

pippintookme, and I felt the need to share. I laughed so hard...

Tags: fandom: mary sues, random: youtube

Current Mood:

awake

Current Music: that's the life of a mary sue

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27 July 2008 @ 07:50 pm

WTF? Is there no privacy ANYWHERE?

Okay, so I just heard this story about how a hacker got into Miley Cyrus' computer and posted racy photos of her on the Internet. Here's the article.

( From datedire.com or ohnotheydidn't com on LJ )

Okay, so, am I the only one who thinks that this guy needs to go to jail ASAP? I don't care how much the public "demands" these pictures, you just don't hack into someone's PRIVATE photos for money. That's just wrong. The photographs are racy, yes, but they are PRIVATE property, and deserve to be treated as such. I hate scumbags who think they can do anything (and will do anything) for money and 15 minutes of fame.

I didn't start out as a fan of Miley, but I think that she is an all around decent girl. She has so many fans and girls who look up to her. She is also just a girl. She should have the right to privacy just like the rest of us.

Am I the only one who feels this way? From what I read on

ohnotheydidnt nobody likes her. And I meant to comment there, but I didn't feel like becoming a member just for that, so I decided to complain here. Thoughts?

Tags: life

Current Location: home for once

Current Mood:

annoyed

Current Music: year 3000 -- jonas bros.

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21 July 2008 @ 09:13 pm

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle



		I will marry Paul.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Paris in our fabulous House.
		We will have 12 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Black VW.
		I will spend my days as a Fashion Designer, and live happily ever after.