So I'm totally blaming the_404_error for this one... It's a quiz, and I'm not sure I agree with the fact that I'm "traditional" considering I do see myself as more liberal than most people from my area....
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And not a whole lot of much else to report. I went shopping on Black Friday!! Pretty excited about that one. :) Currently focusing on my finals, getting back into my job (maybe) for the three weeks in between semesters, visiting the Boyfriend in there sometime, getting my RA application in on time.... Yeah. There's a few things to focus on... not a whole lot of substance to this post either-- sorry. :(

And not even an icon post! Sacrilege! Blasphemy! I should be hanged for this. Ah well. Perhaps after my final on Friday. :)

Hope you guys have a good night/week/whenever I stalk you next. :)

xoxo

So it's 1:30 in the morning.

The boyfriend's sleeping.

But I can't. GUH.

I don't know whether it's him taking up the majority of the extra long twin-sized bed (not a hard task, but we still seem to share it fine most nights, and he's much skinnier than I am), or me staring at a computer screen for the past 5 hours BEFORE we went to bed that has left me wired. Quite possibly a combination of the two.

I have to say, I'm really amused at My Fair Wedding With David Tutera on WE TV. I know, it's not geeky, and completely and totally girly, but I can't help myself. It's not that I'm dreaming of my own wedding okay, that's partially it, but still. I just find it all -- the process of wedding planning, the dressing up, the flowers, the food, everything, making sure it all runs smooth -- absolutely fascinating, and breathtaking at the results. It'll be my future career simply for the LOLZ that my friends will get out of it.

FUCK.

It reminds me that I'm back where I started in the sense that while I have a general direction of where I want to go with my life, I have no idea whether it's the right choice for me. I want to eventually teach at a college somewhere, but I also want to go into publishing (all sides, from the writing my own novel, to helping to get it published, to selling it at my own bookstore), I want to travel the world extensively, I want to be an ambassador for some good volunteer organization, I want to do things bigger than myself, so that I don't have any regrets when I'm 99 and waiting for my final sleep to take me and my lover away The Notebook -esque style. BEH.

Why am I so girly? I don't think I've ever been this girly. Sure I didn't dissect any of the frogs or whatever in 10th grade, but I sucked it up and did it in college. I was the kid playing in the mud with my cousin when I was younger. I lived (still do) in jeans and T-shirts. And not the girly ones that they get at Hollister, of all places. You know, the ones that cost $70? No. Mine were free. From the school, because I did shit. I didn't just suck up to everyone and use my family to get me places, because you know why? My family's NOT FROM THE AREA. I actually did stuff that I enjoyed doing, and if I wasn't popular, I didn't give a damn.

Gah, those people make me sick.

Anywho. This wasn't going to be a rant, it was simply going to be ramblings at 1:30 in the morning. And yet, there's ranting. SHIT.

So I dunno. I think I'm just going to continue this history thing and see where it takes me. Probably going to try to get a dual minor while I'm here for the next two years, do a couple things that look good on a resume. Volunteer and do stuff. Be the good girl that I am. Yeah. So yeah. History major. With anything from a British Literature to Women's Studies minor. And then I'm going somewhere. Out of this town, this area, this state. Country..... eh, probably going to stick around for a few more years, just to get myself on my feet and out of debt. Married, maybe, in the next ten years. I'm shooting for Europe though. And I'll make it there. Eventually. Hopefully.

Gah -- I'll probably post something better before the week's out. Possibly Friday or Saturday. Could even be Sunday, as I'll be with reliable internet once more.

Did I not mention that? STUPID ME.

I finally am going to get a break!! We have Thanksgiving break starting Wednesday. Woot. My dad's deep-frying a turkey for both his side's Thanksgiving, and Mom's side. Boyfriend's coming down Saturday to go to Mom's side on Sunday. Then we're coming back here. Woot. Oh, and my sisters, grandmother and I are going to go shopping on Black Friday, which should be fun times. I like shopping on Black Friday when I has monies. I think it's fun. :D And then I'm gonna take my little sister to see New Moon. Don't get me wrong, I'm not the Twilight fag fan. She is. (Shouldn't really call her that -- habit from a friend of mine.) But nobody else will take her, and I thought I'd do the nice thing and take her. Even if it means suffering for a couple hours through an emo girl and sparkling vampires. I should be canonized for this.

OH! Gonna pimp velvet_boxes -- it's my icon journal. I have icons in it now! Not very many, but that's gonna change soon. I have them made, I just didn't feel like uploading them all at the same time. I will eventually get to that point, but for now it's baby posts. :) So yeah, go check it out, put it on your watch lists. DO IT. ♥ you!!

xoxo

Soo I realized that I haven't posted anything in a couple of weeks.

But I really have nothing of substance to post, it would seem. :/

I've been going to class. Doing homework. And doing random little things around here.

Like auditioning for the production of The Vagina Monologues that we're going to do. That was fun. And celebrating my one year anniversary with my boyfriend. It feels like a lot longer than a year. It's terrible when we're this young and take being called an old married couple as a compliment. But we've been through being separated by distance for 3 months, my grandfather's death, his brother having a baby.... it just feels like a lot. Our anniversary was a little disappointing -- none of the romantic gestures that I would have loved, but nice nonetheless, considering he did pay for our dinner. I hadn't eaten anything all day -- just kinda slipped my mind. No flowers, which I had hinted that I wanted. Nothing but walking to dinner, walking back, and some sex. Which is always nice, but that night it just kind of left me wanting more. But I've come to the realization that even though he doesn't mean for it to be like that, I will come second. I'll be the random constant. I'll be the one that he doesn't really think about all day until he comes home and goes, "oh, duh, that's right, I do have someone to come home to", and then consequently forget about me when he goes off to work the next day. He's goofy, forgetful, scatterbrained, intelligent as hell, handsome, amazing at sex, independent in thought and action, and yet..... I love him. I can't NOT love him. And he knows that I'd like to come first. He feels bad that I feel like I do come second. But it's just something that I've noticed -- to his friends, his family, his career, his video games -- there's always just going to be something he's thinking about before he thinks of me. Which I guess I don't mind? I mean, yeah, I do mind, the whole point of relationships is that the other person's supposed to come first, but I know that he does love me, and that he's secure, and that I couldn't leave him even if I tried. I've thought about it, trust me. But I just can't. I can't survive without him. I am positive that he's the only one for me.

Gah, I'm such an insecure whiny obsessive clingy example of a female.

Sorry about this, it just kind of slipped out.

xoxo

p.s. -- That's What You Get by Paramore just came on my ITunes. How appropo.

Umm.....I'm totally graduating from college, with my bachelor's, at the end of next year.

I have to start looking at grad schools. Like now.

I'm now like way nervous.

Oh jeez.

On a side note, Happy Birthday tomorrow (the 28th) to the_404_error!!! :)

...to let you guys know that I am still alive. :) 

And it is officially fall. Not by the date. But by the trees. And the chill that I get on my window every morning. And the fact that I snuggle up to my boyfriend every morning underneath the warm covers before he has to leave for the day. ♥

...And the fact that I make and drink espresso every day. But that's okay. :D

So yeah, not a whole lot of substance to this post, as my life is so full of boring it's not even funny. Ah well, when I get out into the real world maybe it will get interesting. That and into a bigger town with more possibilities. Ilike everyone here, and I don't mind the small town feel, but I just feel so closed off, so clausterphobic all of the sudden (and I know I didn't spell that right -- fail). Ijust want to graduate, and get out of here, and do something. Is that so terrible??

And I want to apologize to all those who are expecting my letters. There is no good excuse except for the lack of time. And even then that's not a really good excuse. I am so sorry, and I will get those out ASAP.

So yeah, not a whole lot going on..... got my hair cut Friday, it's cute! Perhaps I will post a pic soon. And then we went to my church's annual silent auction, which is always fun. Lots of stuff. It gets pretty competitive, which I find hilarious, as the proceeds go to local causes. Let's see....hung out with my grandparents Saturday, got to see my aunt, who's recovering from back surgery....and I have a couple of tests this week, nothing too horrible; I'm just glad that the one rescheduled his to Wednesday instead of today (Monday) as I haven't studied for it yet. :) Should probably get to it. Okay.

So yeah, not a whole lot.....there's the annual Halloween dance on Friday, so I'm thinking I'll go to that -- as a flapper. :) Kind of. My dress is a little short to be a flapper's, but that's okay, right? Ish. Either way, I'll take a pic of me in it for here.

Right then, enough babbling. To reading!!

xoxo

So yeah. It's raining.

And very very cold. REALLY COLD. It's cold outside, it's cold in my room, it's just cold all-around.

And I really want Chinese. But I don't want to drive to get it, but I also don't want to make the delivery guy come all the way over to the school. In the rain. And cold. I know that's what they do, but I don't want to drive in it, so why should I make him?

Gah, decisions.

On the plus side, my tests are done and over with for the week. And I am without a care in the world for the weekend.....but tomorrow is Friday. There's still a chance for that to change. Beh. =(

I also get to see my sister tomorrow evening!! Way excited about that. She's performing with one of her college's choirs, which is exciting...haven't seen her sing in forever. =D

And then there's an herb festival on Saturday that I want to try to make it to....hopefully that's in the cards. ♥

Hmm...other than that, there's not really much to report. Justin and I are fine....roomies and I are fine.....yeah. Not much else.

On a side note, I am so so sorry to the penpals who have not gotten my letters yet. I haven't had time to get to the post office to send them!

And a very happy birthday to breyzyyin! Their birthday is tomorrow, and I hope it's spectacular!! =D

xoxo

Yeah, it's cold.

It's not even October yet.

I know it's the last day of September, but still.

So I have a gigantic list of music that's just waiting to be downloaded. I'm gonna have the boyfriend get right on that. ;) Or get a day where I can steal his Limewire. :D 

.....I swear this post was going to be somewhat important. I just don't remember what I was going to post importantly.

On a side note, has anyone else seen the trailer for Valentine's Day? It looks really cute, kind of like an American Love Actually. Totally dragging the boyfriend to see it. He just doesn't know it yet. :)

Off to be actually productive maybe, considering I have stuff to do and time to actually do it....

Or maybe just go post on some other people's journals. Whichever I feel like doing.

Damn you procrastination. Why must you always show up with cold weather?

xoxo

EDIT: It's 2 AM on October 1st. I have class at 9 AM. Why am I still awake? I don't want to pull all-nighters if I don't have to. FML. Damn insomnia hitting when I do not want it. DO NOT WANT. Guh.

UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH.

Totally want my camera to wooorrkk...
But alas, if it has no power, it no workie.
Sad day.

=(

Therefore, need new power cord.
Because I can't find mine.
UGH.

So, totally did not get everything I wanted to get accomplished, accomplished. (See previous entry for list.)
Am way upset at self.
I let myself get distracted wayy to easily.
This is counter-productive.
But what is life if not counter-productive to what we need to do?

Have stuff in the crockpot, simmering away. :) Smells pretty frickin' tasty, if I do say so myself.
And am totally getting penpals. Wayy excited about that. :D

Now, to be productive, and thwarted once more. BLARGH.

Ah well, LJ and its populus is still ♥

Accomplishing this weekend:

1. Visiting my family on Saturday.
2. Getting my Medical Terminology work caught up.
3. Doing my Chemistry worksheet.
4. Doing my Cultural Geography worksheet.
5. Reading The Antichrist for Banned Books.
6. Study for my Anatomy and Physiology test.
7. Catch up on Fable II.
8. Printing off Powerpoint for/reading Chapter 4 for Sociology.

....Really, 7 & 8 should be switched, but whatever. So yeah, there's what I'm trying to accomplish this weekend. Saturday's gonna be taken up a little, especially because either Saturday morning or Sunday morning I'm supposed to be helping Holden (BF's roomie) cook breakfast for his girlfriend who's coming down this weekend. :) And Artie (BF's ex-roomie, really fantastic guy) is supposed to be coming down tomorrow, which I am WAY excited about. :) 

Anywho, I'm currently babysitting Derek's (my STRAIGHT gay friend, lol) Xbox 360, because I was playing Fable II (I'm addicted, I swear), and he said I could take it with me back to my room and play, because he was going over to a friend's. Which is why I have it. And why I'm getting ready to play it. Up until he comes back and takes it from me. :(

Oh well. Let the gaming commence! As soon as I figure out how to hook it back up and get everything situated, lol.

xoxo

Lol, so I'm really thinking about it. Starting a bucket list. It was funny, I was talking to one of the roomies and her friend yesterday, and they were starting one. XD They want to walk the entire East Coast. Yeah. :)

But you know what I wanna do? Besides:

a) Backpack Europe
b) Study abroad
c) Travel the world (in general)

( I want to own my own bookstore/coffee shop. )
....And yeah. That's all I have for right now. What do you think? Gotta dash. Time for class! :D

xoxo

So yeah.....basically what it is. It's an icon dump. Just some that have been sitting around a while, waiting to be posted....and I thought I might as well. So here you go. :D

6 Emily Blunt
4 Emma Watson
2 Rachael McAdams
20 Gracie Carvalho
3 Stock
21 Misc. [1 Wolf's Rain, 1 L'Arc~En~Ciel, 2 Model, 1 Matthew Goode, 1 Guillame Canet, 2 Hayden C., 1 Heidi Klum, among others.]
( Icons behind here..... )

Hey hey all --

Well, life has been, generally, boring, after that MASSIVE dump post I did a few days ago.

It kinda sucks though.

Lost my phone. FML.

Have a case of water-in-ear, which wouldn't be so bad, except that one ear sounds like it constantly has earmuffs on it. FML.

On the positive side, though:

Got massive amounts of cooking done. :) Now have food to last me throughout the next two weeks.

And like 6 boxes of macaroni and cheese. ♥ Pokemon mac&cheese FTW!! lol

And the boyfriend likes my cooking. A plus on his part. :) Granted, he was willing to say that after I made hamburgers yesterday.....hmmm.....

But then I cooked breakfast this morning, and he deemed it great as well. :) 

Love him. ♥

But now I have to look into getting a new phone and getting the company to switch the numbers over...wonder if they can pull up the contacts, that will save me having to make a Facebook group to get all the numbers back. XD

xoxo

ETA (12:41 AM): Alas!! I can hear once more!! Ear is much better, hoping it will be better come the morrow. :D

Umm.....I really don't know. I think most people might answer men, but I think that women are just as guilty of it too. Not to rag on my own sex, but I do think that women, if they are attracted to another male, and are especially bored, and tired, and just not attracted to the one they married/are committed to, would take that chance just for the excitement.

On the other hand, a lot of men just can't keep it in their pants. XD

And yes, I do believe in marriage, as a commitment to someone that you truly believe that you will love until the end of forever. And the end of forever, as far as I'm concerned, is virtually impossible to fathom. And in marriage, for some, God is involved. For others, He's not. It's a matter of opinion and your beliefs, I think.

xoxo

Okay, so I have a couple of ideas....there's one where the plot sounds really cool for NaNoWriMo, because I don't normally do things like it -- the majority of my thoughts veer towards the fantasy realm, not science-fiction. And then the other one is right up my alley with fantasy/history....all that good stuff.

( Idea #1 )
So yeah....if you made it through all that, kudos to you. =D

And I want to tackle one for NaNoWriMo, but I don't know which. I definitely feel more comfortable with the second idea, but I kind of want to do the first one, because it's sort of science-fiction-y, which means there's more structure, and it would be more challenging.

But I dunno. =)

xoxo

Hey all--

I'm supposed to be studying for my anatomy and physiology test tonight, but I missed you guys a lot. Like a lot a lot. So I decided to drop in and see how everyone was doing, and update you all on my ever-boring life.

Well, I'm back at college, got my major successfullly changed, and I'm doing pretty well in my classes so far....then again it is only week 5.

I feel terrible for leaving for months at a time, but life gets in the way, you know? I'm going to try to get back into the swing of things. But my computer, for one, is dying a slow terrible death on me, so I'm trying to recessitate it. Which involves me getting everything of importance onto my external, and then wipe the entire thing. Yay?

And then there's life itself. I'm taking 19 credit hours this semester, which is 6 classes. yeah, I'm an idiot. but I felt it was necessary to get things back in order, and I'm trying to keep busy. I'm involved in the student government this year, and I'm trying to become a resident advisor (RA) for next year, which involves me getting my grades back up from the MAJOR hit they took last year. It was not good for me academics-wise. That reminds me that I need to check on the actual policy they have for grade replacements....well, because I got really terrible grades in three of my classes last year, and I'm retaking two of them (I'm not touching the third one again with a ten-foot pole) to get better grades. And I was talking to the residence coordinator about what I should do to become an RA, and I mentioned what I was doing, and he made it sound like I would just be upping my GPA as if I were NOT taking those classes again......but I'm not sure that's quite what he meant. I don't know, I'm going to have to check.
And I was a Welcome Ambassador this year, which basically meant I got to help with our Welcome Week. Completely volunteer position. And I thought it was a good idea. Which, I mean, don't get me wrong, it was a good idea, and I don't regret doing it, but it was just a lot of stress, because even though we were taking a lot of work (and when I say a lot of work, I do mean A LOT) off of the RAs, they didn't seem to appreciate us as much as they should have. But maybe that's just me, and I just tended to hear the negative ones. They could have been doing it by themselves, because we didn't have to be there, we wanted to be there, and so they should appreciate us just a tad more.

Anywho.

My relationship's going alright. I pretty much am in love with my boyfriend, who is still the same person as last year. We've been dating nearly a year....I love him. I am pretty much content on that front. He irritated me there for a while though, up until way recently, because he just wouldn't talk to me it seemed. Like he wouldn't tell me what was on his mind, what he was really thinking, and he just doesn't argue with me. I think that's frustrating me the most right now about that, is that he's so damn agreeable. Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing that we agree for the most part. But I grew up around bickering and arguments. And I thought it was the funniest thing ever. I want that in my relationship too. Oh, I suppose it will get to that point. I mean, we're both fairly opinionated; I just tend to voice my opinions more than he does. But he's getting better. So that's a good thing.

Well.....let's see.....I seem to be running out of things to say....Oh! On the fandom front, unfortunately I seem to be doing JACK lately. I haven't written a thing in forever, although I'm starting to get ideas again. I haven't done anything with Photoshop in forever, although that's partly contributed to by my computer failing. Epically. So when I get my computer up and running again, I think I'll do some more stuff with Photoshop. I'm thinking I'm going to wait until November to do anything writing wise, to conserve my writing energy for NaNoWriMo. I've been "going to do it" for the past two years now, and I didn't do it these past two years. So, I'm going to force myself to do it this year. I'm going to be so burnt out, come November.

Ah, life.

Gotta love it.

xoxo

Hmm....methinks Amazon. :D

Because there's soo much stuff to choose from, so I'm not limited. :)

Would I share? Depends on whether I can spend the $1,000 first. :D

I'm beginning to hate summer vacation. You want reasons?

A.) I'm away from the man who I'm starting to believe is, indeed, the love of my life. I truly want to spend forever with this guy. He's so amazing, and being away from him is killing me.

B.) I have to work. At McDonald's. UGH.

C.) I get to find out all sorts of 'fun' information, like my best friend being pregnant. And having the kid. And keeping it.

On top of all this, guys, my grandfather died last night. My dad's dad. I've been slowly going crazy all day, I keep hearing his voice, I keep smelling him, and I miss him so much. It would seem I can't work with the public anymore, because any time I would try to take someone's order through the drive-thru, I keep hearing his voice on the phone.

.......If it comes down to it, I've decided all that I want is a pair of his suspenders -- he always wore suspenders, and they were always, ALWAYS, red ones-- and I want a picture of him and my grandma when they were younger. Like dating/first years of marriage. You know? I want to have that, something to think of them by. Because I don't really have any pictures of them that I can take with me. So maybe I should ask, in case it does come up. I think Grandma would like that. Right?

.....God, I honestly don't even know what to do. I'm pretty sure my grandma's devastated. I would be.

Keep him and my family in your thoughts, prayers, whatever you feel like sending our way. =)

xoxo

Katy

P.S. I got to go to Chicago, though. I'll post pictures and such next time, probably after the funeral on Tuesday.

"I feel as though everything I once knew is crashing around me; everything is different, changing, without my knowledge or involvement; I don't know what to do, where to turn, other than go with the flow, hoping everything turns out ok; why do I feel so unprepared, so clueless, so.......lonely?"

Well, this is what my Facebook status is.

My best girl friend, the one I've been annoyed with, is pregnant.

And apparently has been for a while.

And she didn't tell me.

Apparently the whole world knew.

I'm slightly pissed, but I know I can't be, because I'm sure she has good reason for not telling me, right?

Her due date is July 6. Supposedly.

That puts conception at about October-ish.

Which means her ex-boyfriend (a real dickhead, if you pardon my language) is the father. Unless she really was sleeping around on him.

Which also means she's been pregnant this entire time.

Oy vey.

I'm so nervous I'm shivering. That doesn't happen very often unless I'm really, REALLY nervous about something.

But whatever happens, I'm going to do my best to be there.

Because she's my best friend. We go too far back for me to just let that go. I just hope that she feels the same way. =(

And the baby's a girl. Josephine Dawn.

OY VEY.

This makes both of my best girl friends (I don't want to say former, but we're definitely not as close as before) pregnant. And due at about the same time. And they had been dating and getting married/planning marriage to their boyfriends of ONE year. Am I the only one with one ounce of sense? Or something that vaguely resembles it?

I really could use some feedback, thoughts.....anything at this point.

Thanks.

Til next time;

xoxo

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Oh boy. Here I go. =) I'm trying to be optimistic about it all. It's my plan for summer -- OK technically, it's like a 6-month plan, and I don't expect to lose it all in 6 months, but I want progress. Wish me luck. =)

Hey all --

So yeah, I've had an interesting week, I suppose you could say. I did the whole go home to work thing like I always do, but then yesterday (Sunday) I had an interesting opportunity. You may guess now.

................


.........Done guessing? Okay, I suppose I'll tell you........


.......I met the BF's parents. For the first time. EVER. Yeah.


But they like me!!! I'm excited. You should have seen me last night, I was practically bouncing off the walls when he told me. =)

And on a school-related note, I got a 20/20 on my evolution homework!! I was way excited about that too; that's the first time I've gotten a perfect on an assignment in her class. So yay for me. =)

And I have to go to the library after aqua aerobics today, to work on my cell biology project with my partner. But I don't have class tomorrow, so whatever we don't get done today, I can work on tomorrow morning til calculus. (Ugh. I hate math. Especially calculus. This reminds me I have to do that homework. lol)

Well.......other than that, I can't really think of anything interesting that I've done.....well, ok, today, I went and joined this thing called OGame. Yeah. The BF and some friends of ours (and his) are all playing it, and they convinced me to do it too. It's a browser-based game, so it takes forever for anything to get done, but they are on it ALL THE TIME. I hope I don't get that addicted.

So yeah.....other than that, the only semi-interesting thing is that I'm seriously considering doing a icon journal, so look for that relatively soon; I'm working on icons now, so I can do a good first post. So yay, I suppose. And I'm lurking like mad on some bento communities and sites. So I'm going to start doing that too, methinks. And there's some animanga that I want to look into, but I think I'm also going to look for some Katharine Hepburn films as well. I love her. My mom liked her too, and so my name is spelled like hers. =) 

Okay, this turned into a rambling post real fast. So I'm gonna let you guys go. Have fun, don't get hurt, and don't regret anything that made you smile. =)

xoxo